Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
Alone and helpless,
She has no light in her world.

Everyday she waits,
Waiting for a person who will bring light to her,
She looks strong,
But inside her is crying,

Whenever the darkness draws nearer,
She wonder how can she be free without the light,
But she never stop waiting.

She starts to dream,
If I get stronger,
If I open my door,
Will you notice me and bring me the light?

If I be more patience,
If I open all my doors and window,
Will you notice me?


ME!!!Y


Sim Zhen Yu[snow]
12/01/91[Capricorn]
Holy innocents' primary
Serangoon garden secondary
republic ploy[DNM]

Death does not mean that it ends but a new beginning and recantation.

我看见了人类丑陋的一面,认为十分的可怕也认为十分有趣。

不要轻言放弃,佛则对不起自己。

Let everyday be new move towards Ur dreams in order to succeed in life…

Music is universal and music is what I hear every day and music to me is eternity alive.

不要在乎别人的眼观,只要行得正,做得正,就好了。

让我自由吧。。。我要飞越那堵高墙。直达我的乐园。。。 p>

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best flutist
to have my own flute[altus]
to stay overseas , have my own house and a nice car
to study overseas
to be with my friends forever
to work in my favourite industry and earn lots of $$
LIKESY

music
freedom
swimming
dreaming
watching dramas
LOATHESY

raw pineapples
betrayers
ppl who likes to hurt others
ppl who order my life
I dun want to be a 便利贴

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Thursday, July 24, 2008
8:09 AM

i will keep this tag as the first memorance to the first SIBF that i participated...
the photo of the four ladies, me, jiemin,jia huan and sheryl...",

sorry to xin hua that i took photo of you sleeping but you look funny what... LOL
the picture of zeon, wei hong[boss] and his assistance[jiemin], btw it looks like the CEO is reading a certain report that his assistant pass to him... haha...
too bad no pictures of god brother because he don't want to take picture...
today i rushed to RP early in the morning for my 4th understanding test for enterprise module...

then after the test i had to rush to NIE and never turn up for leson after that...

it is all because i went to participate in the singapore international band festival[SIBF]...

when i reached NIE after my test, to set off with the band to go back to TRCC...

in TRCC, we started tuning at around 12 plus, to my surprise in the tuning room we suddenly sound surprisingly nice...

when we enter the hall, then we found out that the sitting arrangement was all changed but we were not bothered and continue.

when we started performing, it sounds good, but when i was playing the second piece with the band, i notice that i may not producing any sound as there seems to have no vibration of my flute, i was worried, but at the end of the second piece the vibration sensation of my flute was back again...

after that was the last piece, sinfonia, i suddenly played wrong note but i immediately stop when i felt it and join in when i feel right...

jia huan say it was loud when i sit beside her, i hope that that wrong note was not send to the adjudicators, because i heard that they were strict and the standard was high as it is in international level, which means a COP is equivilent to SYF bronze... and mr quek predict that the best result we get will be a bronze[which is a standard of a silver in SYF]...

i was depressed for a few seconds, but was alright after that because i know that what happened cannot be done again...

after the performance, the gang of,me, jia huan, sheryl, si on[god brother], jie min and also zeon[wei hong] went to buy some food as we feel hungry...

after that we went back to the theatre...

starting of the performance by the RPWS after the intervals... shawn started sleeping, snoring throughout the whole performance, it was so funny and he was actually totally shock till he awake when the last band of the division 1 playing as a sudden rumble from the band totally shake him of from his dreams...

after watching the division 1 we left, TRCC and went back to NIE...

now i finally know that how strong the baritone saxaphone player is[macho] as when i was helping out in bringing the instrument back to NIE i was actually struggling in carrying the case with instrument in it...

after that we went home however some stayed at TRCC to watch the open division one...

i waited for the result till 10 plus, and guess what...

it was expected by mr quek that the band got bronze...

which is a good start...

now i am sleepy... tired today's programme...

tomorrow i still need to attend a concert a ACS barker road...







我觉得可以遇见你是我生命裏最美好的奇迹。

i am staying in NIE for good, not leaving!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1


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Saturday, July 19, 2008
8:34 PM



recently i have a shortage of things that i want to post because of the singapore international band festival, studies as well as also my schedule for next week which is fully packed...

singapore international band festival is 4 days away and i think that as the day draws near is also means that i have to practice much more much more harder but as usual use my own techniques to practice the piece [which was to memorze and remember how the song sounds like]...

i have actually memorize sinfonia [mostly done except the melodic part whereby the whole tempo become slower]... anchors aweigh [i am done with memorizing the part where there is running notes... loch lomond[i memrize what does the sustain note sounds like-so that i will at least produce a balance pitch]...

i know there is more to go...

yesterday during lunch there is lots of funny things happen in NIESB[YOUTH]... jia huan played with unfinished food and create a lady made of food, zul the double bass player showed hs strength by cracking the can into two[wow!]...(picyures are shown on top) and also sofian eating a banana which i laughed like mad because it looks like banana in pyjamas eating banana...haha...

next week my schedule are fully packed...

firstly, i got test on the 22july[cognitive] after test i got lessons and after presentations i have to rush off to NIESB youth for the final rehersal for the singapore international band festival...

secondly, on the 24 of july i got test in the morning and the test is upon enterprise[which is recently getting harder]... then after the test i have to rush of to boon lay to have tuning, pitching and going through the pieces for the singapore international band festival before we left to TRCC[sigh..back to RP again;to and fro]...what a hectic and busy day...

thirdly, on the 25 of july, i had to attend an adventure learning lesson after the lessons for the day but it seems to me that it ends at 9 pm but i got a concert admission to go to which is at newton[ a concert held by the ACS- barker road] now i am still in dillema whether i am going for the adventure learning to grab CE points or to go to the concert to see the legendary movement symphonic band[gold-of-honor-band] perform... if i go to the adventure learning i will miss my only opportunity to see them perform, if i miss my adventure learning i will need to use other ways to get my CE points...

ahhh... maybe i'll see first... let time decide everything lor... no choice...





i watch korean drama [three dads one mom] conclusion -quite a funny show...

after watching i agree t this phrase alot and thinks that having children will think that it is a gift... but i would not want to have children so soon although i dreamt before in my dreams with my future husband[images are very blurr-can't see my future hubby face]




每一个BABY都是上帝牵着手带到世界上来的 ,没有任何一个是意外。

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Saturday, July 12, 2008
9:36 AM





yesterday i went out with the NIE youth band to watch rehearsal NDP fireworks at the esplanade[durian shell]...

it was an interesting and fun trip with them...

in this trip, i actually played with Wei jie, xing hua[that guy which i say that i am not so familiar with, now i am familiar with] and also yu fong...

i become wei jie and his 1st gay partner xing hua's ka ti[subordinate]...

we have lots of fun...

i even taught yu fong different ways of tickling other people...

i laughed when i Saw those person who has been tickled...

i joined in too... HA HA

although the fireworks was not more than 10 mins but i was so clear and when we looked at it in our sitting area it look as if it is exploding above our heads...

the pictures are the ones i took there because i feel that it is what the city is beautiful about...[please don't mind that it is blur]

the videos are the videos that i have taken during the fireworks display...[enjoy]

yesterday is also Si on my god brother's birthday...

just to wish him on the blog...


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED GOD BROTHER SI ON!!!!!!!!!!!!




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Sunday, July 6, 2008
6:56 PM

last Saturday was my turn to sleepover at AI yuan's house...
the sleepover was great...
but before that i went to NIE for practice...
the professor ho was indeed a person who is very good in conducting...
he has special conducting techniques...
he has special way of communicating...
my korkor laughed all the way when he was conducting...
when he showed korkor how to insert his reed properly, i was shocked and i remember the whole band laughed... 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈...
after that we left boon lay...
i accompanied my korkor to take bus...
on our way we talked about lots of things...
he asked why i would want him to be my korkor...
i think that at that time i have only simple answers which is not really exact...
therefore i will answer again this time...
1st-i want to have akin who can be by my side to support me even we don't have any DNA relation...
2ND-he is the person that i can trust and i believe he will never ever betray me...
3rd-without him i will still be a lonely and helpless person
4Th-without him i will not be able to continue in my music route and feel so happy...
5Th-i hope to have someone who can be my brother to guide me and protect me at certain times to bring me away from my sorrow...
6Th-i want to be best friends with him forever therefore not to break this bonds lets be god brother and god sister to bring us to become like a family...
7Th-want to be by your side to go through the up and downs...
8Th-i admire his dreams...
9Th-hope that he will feel what is to be to have a sister as he does not have any...
lastly-because i will be very proud of myself and him to be my god brother whom i adore...

next, we talked about humble...
he said being humble i will be blessed in the latest years but i am still not sure that i will really be blessed but just to say that i am very blessed to have him as my korkor...
hope he feels the same too...
i waited till he board bus 147 and i went back home after that to prepare for my sleepover at AI yuan's house...

after arriving at AI yuan's house we watched movie[L-change the world]
i was really nice and funny...
the kid named near was a funny...
L was also very funny....
conclusion the movie was nice...

after that we headed to the bedroom watch the old times animation...
in the animation the 萤火虫 firefly supposed to be blue but the show's character keep saying that it is green...
i wonder whether the characters in the show go colour-blind...

we slept after that...
when i was sleeping i don't know that my mum is actually calling my phone..
i only know it when i reached home in the night the next day...
never mind the case is solved...

when we were closing our eyes waiting to dozed off, we talked about what my brother told me about humble...

the next thing i know after the conversation was that i was fast asleep...

the next day, AI yuan then told me that i was talking in the middle of my sleep and i looked confused...
i just only remember that i have another foggy and blur dreams...
after that i hope that this dream will not come true as most of the time the dreams were true same as the one i dreamt on Mrs john and one of my relative who was dead lying in the coffin...

breakfast on Sunday was two half-boiled egg , a toast and kopi-milk...
delicious...

AI yuan and i started planning on going to swim at toa payoh but a sudden rain changed our plan to go to swim at the condo again instead..
i don't know why i was feeling cold that time even though i have a high tolerance in the pool...
AI yuan said that i was going to have a flu...
after coming up from the pool, we sit at the bench, i asked AI yuan a question, imagine what we will be in five years time...
AI yuan answered that we will still be best best friends because we live so near... i was so touched when i heard this answer because it is the same as me... i was really glad and have feelings that even words and actions cannot be describe...
after that we went to the hougang point to buy salad ingredients, chips,sweets,chocolate and herbal tea...

the salad taste great i love it, i finish the whole bowl of salad within a few minutes...

next we watched a touching, funny animation on ghost, skating , and romance...

next, continue anime..
in the end, dinner and home...
a tired and happy Sunday i have...

just to say...
i was happy to have AI yuan as my very very understanding best friend, pal and like a family member...
have Si on as my god korkor...
jia huan as my best pal...
have shi xin as a good friend...
have xiao qian as a friend for more than 4 years of friendship...


希望找到一个爱我的人,而且我也很爱他...

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Thursday, July 3, 2008
11:11 PM


when i saw the problem statement for today's module i really hope that it can happen to me...

today's problem is [[WHO AM I?& IMAGINE YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND LOST YOUR MEMORY? WHAT WILL YOU DO?]]...

my first answer to my group mates are i have never lost my memory before how would i know???

next my answer to them is i hope that i can lost my memory...

because who will want to remember how your closest people in your live betray you and used you as a tool...

i kept thinking...

if one day i really lost my memory, i don't want to remember how i found out that the person closest to me betray me and hurt me...

as i have been chosen to close myself in a dark room at times, hoping that no one wll find me, so that i will not get hurt again...

i always want to prove myself...

although at times i succeed but in the end i will ask myself why i must go this far and get hurt at times...

i just can end the emotional hurt in myself...

it has become a great big scar...

therefore, i always tell the others that i am escaping from the scar at times... although i know that i could not escape from it forever...

it hurts me but i hope that it will remind me...

i admit that i was a person that i don't know what to do in my later lifes but once i was triggered by music and i was fasinated by the symphonic band...

i started to pursue these dreams...

in the past i am living in delimma...

when i was young i was helpless...

when i grew older in a few years i start to know how to protect myself...

when i reached my stage as a teenage i start to know that the only way of protecting myself is to wear mask and close up myself at times...

but i believe that one day someone will help me open all my windows allowing light in and also bring me away and fly towards the place where there is no darkness and a place with all doors and windows but a place without any doors, windows and darkness...

to me that is the palace of purity and light...
我已经把它当作是我人生中的故事,我创作和继续生存的养分!!!






重要的是如何生存,不是如何死去。


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