Sunday, February 7, 2010

arab street with E24D

arab street with E24D

last art of story lesson... last pic with val

last art of story lesson... last pic with val

2nd of feb 2010,
i lost a friend whom have been with me for my year 2 semester 2,
the sudden news strike before my practical exam for production practicum,
i cried hard[ i am the type of person whom seldom cry in public and even when my relatives passed on i will only cry for a day and stop], however, i cried for days and days, my eyes were red and swollen...
the memories with her suddenly kept appearing in front of me these few days after she have passed on,
remember how we met,
remember her messages that she send me,
remember before every EOF lesson she will always message me in the morning to ask what to bring for lesson,
we even took bus 169 to yishun together before,
we even ate together with her friends at break for a few times,
she even passed some flu to me before, making me feel sick
i always remember she will always buy cheese tofu and dory fish from the canteen E1 as snacks...
she loves to eat grill fish to and always left the mash potato untouch...
we even most of the times leave the class last together....
she likes to draw anime characters and print stacks and stacks of notes....
we even talk about some personal issues,
i will always ask her to hurry up packing her stuffs shouting "ah ji, faster leh, ai kia mai..."
now, i have no more chance to hurry her to pack her stuffs, and even view her works that she drew,
even a day before her accident, we were the last ones in class, i was even hurrying her to pack her stuffs, and wait for her to leave the room together, but because my friend yu shan was waiting at the library enterance i have no choice but to say "ah ji, 我朋友在楼下等我，我先走了，see u on monday..."
and that was our last conversation ever...
now looking at the videos that james had made, and the class photo with E24D, my eyes will start to be red...
i visited her wake on the 5th of feb, after that i reached home, but after the next day when i wake up my mind starts to be filled with her images, her words, the moments.... i still don't believe she leave because the memories still ringing in my head, so clear....
on the last day of her wake which was on the 7th feb, i was not manage to go to her wake because i don't want to start weeping in front of her relatives...
because of her, i was so not myself for these few days... even when i am doing my work, i can't even focus well...
i even stop listening to "ring ding dong" for some days, as the day before she leave, i listen to ring ding dong from her laptop's itune...
it is totally a cruel news...
i think time is definitely something i need now, to cure the lost i have....

val u will always be remembered....

Will you ever notice me...